The road is walked by yourself; you need to understand that where you end up in the first two years of university depends on where your will is.

From 2023 to 2025 I missed a lot. In 2026 I’ve decided that if I want to go on studying, I’ll probably have to choose the path of the postgraduate entrance exam.

Maybe in 2026 my relationships with the people around me will have grown closer and become less rigid, because I naturally carry a sense of loneliness with me. My old deskmate often says to me: fierce beasts always walk alone; only cattle and sheep move in herds.

All this way I’ve had no companions; every step of the journey I’ve taken on my own.

The funny thing is, once I overslept, and I got really angry with Ran next to me: why didn’t you wake me up for self-study!

It’s another year of hard fighting. I hope this diary entry tells myself: I’ve started to wake up. As for my heart—one year from now, we’ll see the truth!